that one time we went on that hike.

Was looking forward to sleeping in on my Saturday off. Being an adult is hard at times to just stay in bed while the earth just keeps rotating but eventually I have to get up.

On a day like today I look for signs. Wonder if what is needed from me will suffice. Woke up extra early to pass to the donut shop before seven. I was getting some breakfast for when I pick up my niece. We had to be in Lewisville at eight. She was going on a fossil history nature walk. Helping her earn a badge for girl scouts. We don't really bond like when she was much younger. She is growing up and is becoming a young lady. I was reminiscing when I'd pick her up from day care and would put her in the car seat. Now she was riding next to me in the passenger seat. And I was telling her about learning how to drive. The years pass fast when you are old, at least that's how it feels for me. I'm wondering if she liked the fact that I accompanied her instead of her mom. Things I think about that a regular tia wouldn't ask herself. When we were done and heading back all I asked was if she enjoyed herself on the adventures.

I was looking for a sign this morning. A sign that would give me reasoning for waking up early and knowing she'd be okay with me taking her.

When I went to the donut shop this morning I glanced over to my right as I was coming in the door. I saw a woman, a man, and four girls, the oldest was probably ten years old. They were all eating at a round crowded table. When I finally turned to leave with my order all I could hear were bye Daddy's. All four small girls trying to fight over each others words so that Dad could hear them each tell him bye Daddy. He responded with a bye. I looked at them and smiled. He had his work uniform and the girls still had their hair messy from when one walks up. They had all managed to wake up extra early on a Saturday to join their dad to eat donuts before he had to run off to work.

It reminded me of my mom and my sisters at that age. How my mom managed to handle four girls while my dad worked.

This was my sign. At our young age we didn't have a tia to help us. We just had each other. We didn't get to know what extra activities we could do besides trying to drive our mom crazy.

My sister had me to help her. Maybe one day when Gema is older she'll have that story that goes something like this........remember tia that one day we went on that hike and it was really humid?

My sisters and I never had that.

Tia

I know it's like a poof going on in your head but I don't remember when was the last time Spanish mothers shared American mothers day on the same day. I'm Mexican I tell my mother Feliz Dia de Las Madres on the tenth in south and central America. It's funny at times when she tells me but I'm in America so I get two presents. One on the tenth and one on the Sunday it is celebrated here. I'm lucky to have my mom still with us. she doesn't like to take photos so I have to sneak one in there at times. My mother is the friendliest person that I know. She has a way with showing her smile and making strangers into friends. The word mom means something different to everyone. When I hear mom all that comes to mind is her cooking. How she always wants to cook for you. She spends the most of her time in the kitchen cooking. She prepares food just in case her daughters swing by. How her grays show more and more and she wishes she still had the strength to look young. So she does what everyone does today well just about, color their hair. My mom has lived through some hard times and if she wanted to she would tell us her stories but I think she doesn't because she herself tries to forget. One of our child hood memories of my mother was when we lived in Oak Cliff. She would invite our tia over and they would go in the back yard and make donuts for all of us. I remember we'd along with our cousins look forward to us playing while they would make a batch. I love my mother dearly just wish our bond was stronger than what she knows it could be.


my sweet mother

I ran across an ad in a child's magazine. Don't know why I read them when I see one It's not like I could relate because then I think about all the time lost just wondering, the what if. I didn't know there is a group called M.E.N.D that helps mothers with the loss of a child. That today being mothers day some mothers are without their child. I have a friend that lost her child this week and how do you comfort her knowing the pain has to be unbearable. Mothers day can be filled with joy just as much as it can be filled with sadness. With the help of social media we give thanks by showing others the gifts that are given to us but some have lost a mother already or their child. Cherish the small things that come your way. Be it a flower from the backyard to the flowers from the store.

one day they will hold each other

I am blessed to have my sisters in my life to have wished me a happy mothers day today even though I haven't been given that gift. Got a giggling video of my nephew wishing us happy mothers day.....happy mothers day to the best tia in the world. I also got a surprise hand made flower bouquet made with the picture of my first born on it. She has become very creative thanks to this pinterest
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it's me and my sisters with my mother and one of our furry babies (Sadie)

On mothers day I wish my partner a happy mothers day because she cares for all our furry babies. She tends to them in ways you would when babies get sick. Because believe it or not they do get into situations that have consequences later. I ended buying her the Big Eyes movie, haven't seen it yet but she is my artist.

To all the friends and family that have wished us a wonderful happy mothers day, thank you. Thank you for including us on this special day. One of our friends said happy future mothers day, who knows by then we'd celebrate happy mothers day to a bottle feeder with diaper changing baby and our flea bathers one day.

With this said I give all the mothers and furry mothers a Happy rainy yet beautiful day Mothers Day today.